I love photography.
I love photoshop.
I love taking photos.
But in the last month or so I've been getting more and more frustrated with my camera, my first DSLR, a Nikon D60.
Don't get me wrong, it's been a great camera to learn with.
I've taken some of my favourite photos with it.
Thing is, now I want more.
I want to be able to take decent photos in low light without stupid amounts of noise.
I want to be able to use more than the three focus points that are available to me.
I want to have a camera that has the autofocus motor in the actual body, instead of having to lust after AF-S lenses that I can't afford, and having to attempt to focus manually with my precious 50mm 1.8 when I'm trying to take shots of, well, anything.
I am stuck, basically, with the 18-55mm kit lens I have, as it's the only one with auto focus in the lens.
It's driving me BATTY.
I have been lusting after the beautiful sexy does-everything-I-need-in-a-camera Nikon D90 for well over a year now.
I may be in a position to buy one in the new year.
But there are so many other things we could do with that money instead, so I'm torn.
I have finally started to accept that I AM good enough at photography that I could actually do something with it, but with the camera I have, I am stuck.
I want to take photos of my boys running around enjoying themselves and actually be able to get them in FOCUS without having about 50 photos of them out of focus. All cause I bought the wrong 50mm lens. To be fair, it's the only lens I could afford to buy, and I have still had some amazing shot with it.
I'm now at a stage where I feel like I really *need* an upgrade to my camera body to be able to get past the level I'm at now.
What do I do?
Should I save the windfall I'm going to get in the next few months and go for it, to be able to enjoy getting my camera out again?
Or should I stick with what I have?
I've stopped enjoying going out with my camera now.
I can get my exposure sorted. I know how to technically and artistically take some beautiful shots.
I'm just... stuck.
And Frustrated with a capital F.
I guess I just wanted to get this out there.
Time will tell whether or not I can afford to get my lusted after D90.
I am hoping that I can.
I just need to persuade D that it's a good idea.
I hope maybe this post might help explain it to him...
I love photography.