SoftThistle Life

Oh you'll have someone else by then!

LifeMarylin3 Comments

That's something I hear a lot of when I talk about my boys growing up, becoming teenagers and thinking that I'll most likely have to handle that on my own.

You know what though? I don't agree. I am liking living on my own. I can do what I like (to a certain extent!) and I don't have to check that it's ok with anyone. I LIKE it being just me and my boys, and not having to share the remote, or bandwidth, or think of when I want to spend an evening on the computer, or watching Twilight.

I just feel like I don't want to put myself in a position ever again where I have to change who I am to be there. I guess I'm going to be a LOT more picky now. Unfortunately I've not exactly got much choice (if any!) when it comes to who I could or couldn't choose. So for now, I'm not going to expect to be with anyone.

Besides, I need to be able to be on my own and be happy this way before I let anyone totally into my life again. Not to mention they're gonna have to really prove I can trust them first. That's gonna be a BIG step.

Only time will tell I guess, but at the rate I'm (not) meeting people or making friends, I could see me being on my own for quite a long time...