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Eleven Days To Go

LifeMarylin9 Comments

Eleven days until my boys get packed off to their dad's for a week.

A whole week!

I don't know what I'll do with myself!

Zack is *so* looking forward to it.

Max, well... he doesn't have a clue what's coming.

I'm a bit worried about him with this trip coming up to be honest.

He's never ever been away from me for more than a few hours at a time.

He'll be going to a place he's never been, and surrounded by people he doesn't really know.

I don't know how or if  he'll cope.

I do know that he follows Zack's lead with a lot of things.

If Zack is upset, Max will start crying.

If Zack is happy to see someone, Max will follow suit.

I know that if Max sees Zack so comfortable around the place (which he will be as he's been there a few times), then Max *should* be ok.

But what if he's not?

What if he needs me and I'm not there?

Will it set him back? His speech, although it's not coherent, has been improving lately. He's babbling tons and trying to say plenty of words.

He can't tell anyone if something's upsetting him.

Max has so many little quirks that his father and that side of the family don't know about.

They don't know his routine.

They don't understand what it's like to care for him on a 24/7 basis.

They don't know that he will FREAK out if something like a crisp he's holding is broken. How he'll howl and scream and tantrum about that single crisp for easily 30 minutes or more.

They don't know that he hates water and baths, or if anything remotely wet or slimy touches him that he'll throw it as far away as he can.

They don't know that he'll only eat cereal without milk, and eat every little piece one at a time.

I guess I just have to hope that Zack will be able to direct him about what Max does and doesn't like, and how we do things with him here.

And hope that his father and grandparents are competent and intuitive enough that they'll grasp what he needs, even though he can't say what it is.

I guess I need to learn to trust that although his father was a complete and utter twat when we were together, that he'll take care of our children the same way I do.

I think I will need copious amounts of alcohol to deal with being away from my babies for a whole week.

At least I won't be woken early by kids for a week though, right? ;)