Blockage

by Marylin on April 15, 2013

You know when you just want to write and write to your heart’s content?

That feeling like you have so much to give, so much to get out of your head, that you can’t wait to sit down and finally be able to get it all out?

That’s how I’ve been feeling lately.

*looks around*

I know, it doesn’t seem that way from the State of the Blog, does it?

That’s because when I actually do sit down to write, I have no idea how to start.

I have no idea what I want to write.

I just have this complete mental block.

And I don’t even know where to begin!

I don’t even know *what* it is that I want to write about, I just know that I need to.

I have the urge to type, and to write, to fill pages and pages of my various journals, but I don’t actually sit down to do it.

Even during those times when I do have the time to sit and write, I don’t.

I faff around on facebook, twitter, catching up on blog reading and watching tv or movies.

I’ll do anything *but* sit down to write.

It’s so frustrating, this feeling of so desperately *wanting* to write, but not being able to get anything out.

I have so many half-ideas swirling around in my head.

I *know* I can write well.

I just can’t seem to put anything I think into the right words, so I don’t even bother.

So yeah, I’m a bit frustrated at the moment.

A bit frustrated that I can’t get out these amazing half-ideas that I know I have in me, waiting to get out.

But I know it’ll pass.

Hopefully once the boys are back in school this wee brain of mine will get back into gear and let me write.

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On the upside, Max and Zack had a BATH together this evening! For the first time ever!

My two boys, playing in the bath together for almost half an hour!

I think I can safely say he’s progressing really well compared to at the beginning of the year!

So I’ll celebrate that and just let things be for now on the writing front.

And hopefully that mojo will be back sooner rather than later!

Though in saying that, I’m still writing more than I have for a while, so that’s a definite plus!

We’re all getting there, in our wee family.

All in our different ways.

Moving onwards and upwards!

Lets hope it keeps going that way!

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Veronica April 15, 2013 at 1:58 am

I stopped writing on my other blog because it just felt too self indulgent. Like, what, WRITE? Paint pictures with words? GEEZ, who do you even think you are. And the first post I wrote there last week was like pulling teeth and I hated it, but I did it and ran away anyway. Starting is the hardest part.

WOO for the bath. That is exciting!

And! WHO DID YOUR THEME? It looks amazing.

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Softthistle April 15, 2013 at 9:22 am

It really is like pulling teeth, isn’t it?
I know I read it, the post, it’s just been a while since I commented. You know I’m always reading though!
I’m SO proud of the bath thing! It’s huge isn’t it? :D
My theme was done by the fabulous Liz at http://violetposy.co.uk – she’s awesomesauce!

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PippaD @ A Mothers Ramblings April 15, 2013 at 9:05 am

I’m the same, I can’t get the proper writing out.

Still mind you you have at least started!

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Softthistle April 15, 2013 at 9:24 am

I’m trying! LOL
It’s better than nothing, eh?
You write really regularly though! I don’t know how you do it tbh!
I remember writing daily for the first year or so I blogged as I had The Bug, but since then? Meh… that’s too much work for my liking!

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Looking for Blue Sky April 16, 2013 at 8:05 am

Great about the bath, love reading the good news :)

I get writing block when I’m really down about my life – there’s only so many times you can write about meltdowns and the other crap that goes with special needs!

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Softthistle April 16, 2013 at 8:34 am

I know, right!! So chuffed!
I can go both ways, it seems over the last year I really pulled back *because* things were going down the pan for us in a lot of ways. Plus, quite frankly, I was beyond exhausted! Now that Max is sleeping through I’m handling things much better, so it’s easier to actually sit down and write, as I have the energy for it!
On the other hand, I’m busy living life, so there are times when I don’t write as often due to that. Then again, I’ve written most of my last month’s posts late at night during the holidays or weekends, as that’s when I seem to write best. Gah! I have no idea! lol :)

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